Deception

I deceive him to protect him,

Saying yes, we’ll still be friends,

When I know the relationship will end.

Putting on my happy face and smiling,

My burden is to be the brave one.

Too much of this pain isn’t mine,

He needs me more than I need him.

While he’s making plans for us,

I’m making plans for me,

Slowly drifting away,

Leaving him on his own.

I deceive him to prepare him,

To give him the strength I have.

Once I’m sure he’s ready,

And I’ve done all I can,

I’ll pack my house and break his heart,

But by then he’ll understand;

He always had the courage to do it alone.

He’ll be brave enough to make it without me,

And I’ll take care of myself for a while.

Maybe someday I’ll find someone who

Takes as good care of me as I did of him.